December 2009
32 posts
Bon Iver – Stacks
(thanks aerie, you were right)
yesterday we talked about being inexperienced and...
i thought about it and realized that i don’t mind at all. i like not knowing and sometimes i even like waiting and sometimes i feel like searching just for the thrill of it but mostly, i am content.
and i told them i’ve always been a closet romantic and when i was little i used to always think that things like this would fall in your lap and find you, and everything would work out...
i feel super funny weird funny not good or bad...
so when you asked me what kind of funny i didn’t know. but that is the kind and i don’t mind it but i don’t like it either. it’s sort of like being dizzy and sometimes i spin around and around in circles because i like to and then afterwards i feel funny but it’s not a bad funny.
it’s like that.
oh, mother
aerie: it would be awkward, right?
mom: the thing about those kinds of parties is...well, if there's no booze and no kissing, then what's the point?
my phone is a happy, happy ringtone and it is...
more and more, i am finding it is okay to be just happy. it takes less work, when it’s real. i like not knowing what to expect or better yet, expecting nothing at all. it’s okay if we are nothing because i think i prefer it like that.
that’s okay with me.
“and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart...”
– e. e. cummings
i can’t get you out of my head
